Momentous Life Change – Embracing the mystery

A blast from the past; in my newsletter released May 19, 2009

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Momentous Life Change 

Embracing the Mystery 

A significant change was set into motion, for me, this past week.  After twenty-three years working for Boeing, I am switching ‘careers’.  The security of a bi-weekly paycheck will cease to exist on June 18, 2009. That symbol of regularity, reliability and ‘safety’ is being replaced with the adventure of the unknown. I will embrace the mystery of life in a new way.  

This is a huge step for me, when I consider where I began. I was lovingly influenced, by a financially lacking and divorced mother to work, plan, study, learn, and create financial independence. I remember one early evening vividly. My mother was outside, pounding her clinched fists on the cinder block wall of our house screaming, “I hate this house, I hate this house!” I think I was around eleven years old. Home maintenance requirements and expended personal energy hence triggered her advice to avoid those troubling situations. From that early age, I was, in a sense, traumatized by her material fixation, the lack, and the emotional pain. That was when I started working. Baby-sitting initiated my resume. I needed to work and earn money to avoid the potential agony related to being ‘without’. 

Now at age forty-five, after doing my ‘time’ in the corporation, I’m pursuing my dream, my love, my calling. A calling is what our inner voice compels us to Be. We only need to listen.  Monkey-mind chatter and outside influences are insistent and must be managed if we are to listen, hear and heed the call of our inner identity. 

Through this change process, I discovered a level of courage I hadn’t experienced before. I contemplated the idea and mentally prepared for this change for the last three years. I created an ‘exit plan’ and used all of the healing tools I have been exposed to as well as re-reading teaching ‘detachment’ and ‘inquiry’.  

Intention to honor our heart’s desire often goes against the grain of mainstream thinking. When I began telling people I was planning to leave Boeing I got responses like “Are you crazy?”, “In a time like this?”, “Can you make it financially doing your healing practice?” “It’s not a good time to quit your job!” and “You’ve got balls when so many people don’t have jobs.”  After I shifted my attitude from fear to love; love for my ‘calling’ I received amazing support from my friends and colleagues.  

So now, I’m thrilled to announce myself as a full-time Guide for Positive Change. This work parallels that of a trail guide, one who leads the way for other pioneering and adventuring souls. I knew, from deep within, 5 years ago that I wanted to be an outstanding Hand Analyst – to read and decode the fingerprint patterns and reveal the life purpose and life lesson to the owner of the hands. I announced it loudly and confidently on the first day of my Year Long Hand Analysis training program. Then two years ago I found EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) and like-wise, fell in love with this modality for emotional, mental and physical balance and release.  And most recently, I began practicing Reiki. Reiki, pronounced ray – key, is in an ancient Japanese method of stress reduction and relaxation.  All modalities are being integrated into my practice.  I also conduct workshops for personal empowerment. I want to offer methods to help everyone get to their own personal truth, in their own way, in their own time.  We’re doing it together – deeply and completely. 

 I am ever grateful to my Mom, Rosemary, who introduced me to astrology and my first book on palm reading. Her metaphysical interest also guided me to The Science of Mind by Ernest Holmes and the Vedanta. I suppose her struggles sent her on the search to understand ‘it all’ and her essence has definitely overflowed to me. “Hooray for our side” she used to say.